Ah!

So it is only the second week of school and I already have so much crap that I need to do. Honestly...It just keeps piling up and I can't really take much more of this. I truly think this semester is going to suck. The one good thing is that I think I have finally found my correct major! Teaching...Hopefully...I am not sure if I am actually going to stay at this exact college though. This semester I have just been miserable lately. I have good moments and bad moments but mostly bad. Being surrounded by type A personalities all the time can drive a person insane! More times than not I am wishing to be anywhere but this place!

Okay so clearly right now is just not one of those moments where I am loving this school up. Yea...Not at all. Sometimes I feel like I am surrounded by...Well I don't know if I can say it here becase who knows who actually reads this. Maybe no one...And then I can just say what I actually think about everyone and everything this school is all about.

I really am not liking my Bib. Rev. HUMA class. I thought Dr. T would be amazing but really I think he is just arrogant. I feel like he is going to take the Bible way too literally and that he is a very closed minded person. When we talk about creation I might go insane if he takes it word for word literally. There is way too much evidence supporting the Big Bang I don't care what he says. All the science professors here even know that. I know people are going to disagree but thats cool...We agree to disagree then.

I just kind of hate college. I want my real life to begin...College the best years of my life? Hell no...Not here they won't be. Maybe I should transfer...I dreamt about it last night. Maybe it's a sign! I just need to get away!

Getting Bank in the Swing

So one full week here is almost complete and many things have already changed for me. Well not too many, but a few. First things first...I am not so sure I am going to go to medical school anymore. I've just been thinking and praying about it, and I don't think it's very conducive to having a family. So my alternative plan which I have already begun to pursue is teaching. Biology secondary education to be more precise. I am taking an education class this semester and so far I absolutely love it! The professor, Dr. Mackey, has a real passion for teaching and his passion seems to rub off on the students he teaches. Who knows, maybe thats just me and its a sign, but I don't know how anyone could walk out of that class not excited about teaching! Becca and I are doing a project together and we get to teach in front of the class...Needless to say I am excited about that stupid little project.

For the first time in my entire Grover career, I have no work to do! None! Sure I could start some papers and such that are due in about a month, but c'mon...No thank you. So I relax! This weekend will be amazing! Snowboarding baby! I am pretty much so excited I might pee my pants. Kidding..Totally kidding. But yes, Jenna and I are going to hit the slopes at HV and man..The powder, the wonderful powder. Okay enough about my little excursion.

What else is new with me? Let's see here...Did I mention that I pretty much love all of my classes this semester. I thought Bio would be boring but I am actually surprised at how much I am enjoying learning. It seems that I can't put my textbook down. Well not really. Anyways, I get to visit my home 2 weeks from tomorrow so that I can go to senior dinner dance with Benjamin! I can't even wait to see him! O the things love does to a person.

Today was actually not the greatest of days...I was a little cranky. Ehh, o well. Every girl has her moments thats for sure. Well I am going to clean this joint up a bit and then I am going to watch a movie or something! I love freedom!

Back to school...back to school...

O the fun has started again! I have mized emotions about it. The work has already begun to pile on, but the times with friends has been great so far. Funny story about friends...Becca and I decided that we needed to go to the bank today. So we pile on our layers and layers of clothing and set out across town to our final destination. About 3/4 of a mile later we arrive on the stoop on citizens bank only to find out that..It's Martin Luther King Day! Wonderful! Of course we weren't thinking about this because today was our first day of classes. Clearly Grove City just does not respect the holiday. Instead of giving us one measley extra they hurl a further insult and begin classes on such a day. Torture.

In all seriousness this day was not much fun. My Molec. Bio class is going to kick my butt. I also had lab today which turned out to be another lecture on an entire chapter of information that lasted 1.5 hours. It is my HUMA class that I am looking forward to the most. It can be hard to consistantly read my Bible here. That is one thing that I was not expecting at all. Coming here I figured..Christian college, so my spiritual life must fluorish. Well I was slightly misled. Sure there aren't quite as many worldy distractions as there would be say at a state college, but the workload here is not very conducive to encouraging your Christian walk. This would be why I am exited about Bib. Rev. I now have an entire class that will make time for me to focus on that. Lovely!

A List

Tonight I got the idea to make a list of some things I would like to accomplish in this lifetime. I need to have some goals...Life is quite the ride and no one comes out alive. So I might as well do something while I'm here::

1. Get married..This one seems obvious enough, but really I want to know that I have loved another human being to the full extent.

2. Have kids...My own kids, adopted, whatever. Just little people that will drive me absolutely insane but I can't help but love them anyways.

3. Skydiving...Anyone care to join me?

4. Install a 2-lane bowling alley in the basement of my dream home. Heck yes!

5. Live in a big city...Not forever. For a month or so on my own. I want to live like a movie. Going out partying with friends and just living life.

6. Play in an amazing jazz band...The GC jazz band would be sufficent.

7. Fill up an entire sketchbook.

8. Get out of this country and travel! Anywhere and everywhere!!

9. Run a marathon...Possibly a few, but at least one.

10. Own the entire collection of Grey's Anatomy seasons...I am well on my way to achieving this one.

11. Work on something that involves cancer...Research, treating patients, something.

12. Become a doctor...I am starting to realize that is doesn't matter what kind of doctor. MD or PhD. Physician, teacher, or great scientist....Something like that.

13. Go on a missions trip...I have never been on one before. What if I am supposed to be a missionary and just don't know it yet?

These are the big things. Sure there are many other little things that I would love to do, but if I could accomplish even 3/4 of the things on this list I would say that is a pretty full and complete life. Of course doing any of this would be a complete gift from the "big man upstairs". Life is short so lets enjoy it while we can.

So maybe everything in this world isn't completely horrible. Growing up in my church I have had it ground into me that Christ's return may be at any moment. Any moment they stressed...As in this lifetime. Maybe they are right, but at the same time maybe now. For years and years now people have been predicting the end of the world and return of Christ. Every generation seems to think that the next is so horrible and corrupt, that there is nothing worse that could possibly happen, and that means Christ is coming. Don't get me wrong, He IS coming. It the whole question of WHEN that is the issue. Call me crazy but I am not a fan of people claiming that the world keeps getting worse, that there is no hope.

There is hope! I don't know why I am writing about this...It seems so obvious to me. But I think we need to take a step back and see exactly how Christ is at work in the world now. That all of our efforts for improvement are not just a waste of time. Chew on this...There are missionaries EVERYWHERE now! All over the world! 100 years ago there really were not any. I don't know but I call that a sign of improvement. Times change yes, and with that so does the church. The church adapts. Sometimes that adaptation may go a little too far, become a bit too worldly, but adaption is not always synonymous with corruption. So things change. That does not mean that our generation is awful, that we are going to lead to the destrustion of the earth. Really, truly, and honestly; there are some wonderful things that are happening.

It was an episode of Grey's Anatomy that sparked this post tonight. The episode was based on faith. Maybe not the same type of faith in Jesus Christ that you or I possess but faith none-the-less. I think scientists and athesists today are finally coming to a point where they have no choice but to submit to the fact that there is something bigger and better that created all of this! Certainly not everyone, not even close to everyone, will come to this realization but the truth is out there. The truth is out there and it is continually spreading!

It amazes me how people are so different. It takes almost no convincing for some people to come to realization that Christ is the only way, while others could look Him sqare in the face and still not call him Lord. I just couldn't fathom turning Him down after all the ways He has revealed Himself to me, but that's the thing about man I guess. We aren't all programmed to recognize him, not everyone can see the beauty in it. The world will never be perfect, it will never even come close, but it's not exactly falling apart at the seams either.

Sick as a Dog

Today had been a lazy day. I woke up around 11:30, showered around 2:00, and now here I am. I like being able to sleep in and having the house to myself while everyone is either working or at school. It's a nice feeling although I feel awfully lazy. So that is one reason why I am looking forward to getting back to school.

My dog is sick. :-( I don't know what is wrong or what's going on, but I hope there is something that the vet can do. He was fine yesterday, but today he can hardly walk or move. Poor puppy. I called them today and told them whatwas wrong and now he has an appointment at 7:15 tonight. I really hope that there is something they can do for him, and that he will be okay. I am hoping that Benjamin will come with me to take Mulli to the vet, because I really don't want to go alone. My mom and Jay have Bible study tonight so I am the one who is responsible for taking him.

Other than that life is grand and I couldn't ask for anything more. I don't have much to report about here now cause life hasn't changed much from the last post.

Good Days

Dear dear dear...The days keep getting better and better. I really don't think I want this break to end. I feel like I keep repeating myself on here...Hah. Whatev, it's my blog I write what I want.

Benjamin and I are doing amazing! Everyday with him is a new adventure. This weekend will be tons of fun though. Double date night tomorrow with Ash and Dan. Dinner and bowling, that is the life right there! Then Ben's birthday is Saturday...So it will be a morning at the bowling alley and then hanging out with a bunch of friends for a mini birthday bash. And finally Sunday my sister and I are taking our boyfriends snowboarding for the first time. They are going to be awful and it will be great! Love is a wonderful thing. Thank you Jesus for loving us and teaching us how to love!

I am going to school tomorrow with my momma. I am going to help her grade papers all day and we are going to order lunch and stuff. I love going to school when I don't really have to do anything. Alright I am kind of watching Grey's at the moment and its getting good...Best show ever by the way.

It's Snowing!

So it is offically a new year! Lovely! I haven't made any New Years resolutions. I never really have, because I don't believe I would ever set a realistic one that I would actually keep for more than a few weeks. So I continue doing what I do. I do need to start running though. I haven't since I have been home, and I am starting to feel its effects. That is one good thing about school. I feel like I have more motivation to work out.

I only have about 2.5 weeks left of freedom. This break has flown. I want to go back, because I feel like my brain is rotting when I am not doing anything but at the same time I love being home. I love hanging out with my friends and most of all hanging out with Ben. I love that boy so much it's crazy!! :-D

My crazy grandmother has been here since I got home and she is starting to drive me up the wall. No I am not being mean at all. She really really is crazy. Even my mom and all my aunts and uncles think so. And lucky me...I get to stay home with her for hours and hours while everyone else is at school or work.

So I know all the of the books I am going to have to buy for this next semester and it really isn't too bad. I need a Bio book and workbook thingy which will set me back about 175 and then just a NIV Study Bible which I can find for under 20 online. Much better than last semester I must say. Anyways, I must be going. Maybe I will do some cleaning or something...Or lock myself in my room and watch a movie so my grandmother leaves me alone...Hmmm...